Sun, Dec. 30th, 2007, 04:10 pm
whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat is going on here.
it doesnt even matter that im 21-years-old and almost out of college. i do not, and have never had the patience for drama over livejournal comments, or myspace pages, or any of that teenage tomfoolery. if i ever have something to say to someone, i say it. and if i ever want to write lyrics to express myself or how im feeling about someone or something, then i do that, but i dont make that my way of expressing myself directly to the person, expecting them to decipher what the hell i mean. especially if ive never before tried to express myself to that person directly in a fair way that would allow for points to actually get across.
ive never spammed someone's journal, ive never gotten two of my friends with me to scream someone down in the middle of the street without giving them a fair chance to respond to accusations that relied entirely on hearsay, and i dont plan to start doing either one.
i dont even like saying "act like adults" because i didnt act this way when i was under 18, and i dont act this way now.
i am in the middle of doing eleven papers for school, and even if i wasnt, lord do i not have time for this. i have time for calm dialogues. not this.
Fri, Dec. 21st, 2007, 01:56 pm
is it too much to ask that i dont have drama with absolutely everyone? my closest friends, people i barely know, people ive known for years, people i just met, everyone becomes a really big well of drama, and i really hate it and wish it would just stop.
i wish no ill towards anyone. i dont. and yet for the last year or so ive been involved in so much fucking drama.
do y'all know how busy ive been this semester? i barely have time to use the computer at all, let alone use it to write more letters to people to whom things have to be explained, problems need to be fixed, etc. in 2006 i wrote more long ass letters than i could barely keep up with, and its just more, more, and more. there are people i need to talk to because there are misunderstandings between us, people i need to talk to because i feel ive been wronged, people i need to talk to because they feel i wronged them, people i need to talk to, sort out, negotiate, etc and I AM SO FUCKING TIRED. ARRRRRRGGGHHHH!
i would like to think im a nice, understanding person. i am willing to talk to anyone and everyone. i am just so tired.
Fri, Oct. 26th, 2007, 08:31 am
hmm, ive been meaning to write this for awhile.
a couple weeks ago, i counted how many people i have unresolved beef (problems, issues, etc) with only counting the last year, and actually counted 14. thats ridiculous. then i tried to count them again a week or so later, and only came up with 9, so i guess thats better.
point being, if i have anything like that going on with any of you, ill get to you. i am really busy right now. im taking five classes, am in a show, am directing a scene, and am in chorus. i also have a sister who uses the computer half the free time i have left, so i rarely am able to get myself into these things. also, i recently stopped feeling all-day anxiety which i had been feeling for over a year, so its kind of nice to bask in relative normalcy.
but, dont think things arent somewhere in the back of my mind. if we need to talk for some reason, i probably know. i plan on writing shit and contacting people at some point in the near future so things can just be dealt with and everyone can be happy.
Tue, Jun. 12th, 2007, 07:15 am
It's been a year to this day that I was plunged into depression and anxiety, so finding this video this morning feels like a fitting tribute to all that was good. I only wish Andi were to appear at the end of the video and pop out of a large cake dressed as the NBC peacock, and then it would be complete. Through my pain, the only thing in that first month that made me laugh was watching The Golden Girls, so that show now holds a special place in my heart. It has since become a show that I watch whenever I'm around to catch it, and since it's on five times a day, it's pretty often. The soundtrack to the original Broadway production of Dreamgirls was something that I also discovered during that time, after the play was put on by my school and I watched it four times. "Ain't No Party" happened to hit relatively close to home, and "And I Am Telling You I'm Not Going" is one of the best songs I have ever heard. (And then the movie came out.)
I didn't know quite how to commemorate this day, but watching Bea Arthur sing "Dreamgirls" flabbergasts me. I am now going to go sing with my Youth Pride Chorus, and earn my first paycheck for a gig. I'm overcome.
Mon, Apr. 25th, 2005, 12:34 am
HEY GUYS, THIS ONE'S FOR YOU.
Remember when I said I was doing a research project about gender? Well this is the week it's all happening. Here's the thing - I've narrowed down my topic to "Contemporary Gender Identifications." I know y'all got somethin' to say on this, so get to it!! I already have a couple of people in mind, so even if no one responds to this (like last time *COUGH*) I'll have people I'm gonna bother about it. Who knows! It might even be you!!
I wanna organize a group interview (with all of us in a circle; me asking a bunch of questions and everyone answering), or if certain individuals would prefer, a one-on-one type dealy. It's all gonna be done with an AUDIO tape recorder, so you don't really have to worry about privacy. You can give a pseudonym if you want.
I want to do this next Tuesday, May 3, at 8:30pm. So for you YPC'ers, that's after chorus. And for people who don't want to be in the group interview, we can definitely work out a time, because I have no life/previous engagements. That also means that the interview can be done over the phone. We'll work it out.
Happy Spriiiiing (springspringspring) Break!!!
Fri, Apr. 22nd, 2005, 03:44 am
In R. Kelly's new song "In The Kitchen," he actually sings "Girl, I'm ready to toss your salad."
Jesus takes sinners and redeems them. FOR VALUABLE PRIZES!
Thu, Apr. 21st, 2005, 01:06 pm
"...the proper reaction to crimes committed
against homosexual persons should not be to claim
that the homosexual condition is not disordered.
When such a claim is made and when homosexual
activity is consequently condoned...to protect
behavior to which no one has any conceivable
right, neither the Church nor society at large
should be surprised when other distorted notions
and practices gain ground, and irrational and
violent reactions increase."
Pastoral Care of Homosexual Persons
by Pope Benedict (Joseph Ratzinger), 1986
...and the list goes on and on. Said it before, I'll say it again, organized religion needs to go suck it.
On a completely unrelated note, Destiny's Child has gotten soft. On its own, "Cater 2 U" sets the feminist movement back fifty years. "Independent Women" my ass. And as much as I love her; from certain angles, Michelle Williams looks like 50 Cent, and on certain songs she sounds exactly like Meathead from "All in the Family." "Oh, the way Glenn Miller plaaayyyyyyyyed... Those were the daaaaayyyyyyyyys!!!!"
Tue, Apr. 19th, 2005, 09:33 am
why yes, i am going to see margaret cho and spend the weekend at smith with aurora on april 28.
why yes, i did drop queer lit like its hot.
why yes, i have been walking an average of fifteen miles a day for the last week (not counting like, basic everyday getting-around).
why yes, i did spend a beautiful day yesterday on the grass with all the (nine? ten?) cool people at BC.
why yes, i am having a six flags day with them next week (finally! my first time), along with frolicking with paige and ksenia.
why yes, i have realized that my final days at brooklyn college will be spent in the sweet sunshine with wonderful people and amazing times.
why yes, i did have a lovely day yesterday.